After trying many male sex toys, whether purchased or as a sex toy tester, I find that I have recently been drawn to look at websites advertising realistic full sized silicone love dolls. I have mainly used small hand held masturbation sleeves but have more recently used a large silicone masturbator which is the lower half of a doll (the Pipedream Extreme Fuck Me Silly Mega Masturbator 3) and a high quality inflatable doll (Pipedream Extreme's Hannah Harper Love Doll) both of which I have reviewed on this site. Both are really good to use and so naturally I am curious about what it is like to use one of the very high quality full sized ultra realistic silicone dolls that you see adverised on Japanese and US sites. Unfortunately (or maybe that should be fortunately) I can't afford to buy one so am not likely to find out but I keep asking myself why I think I want one. It seemed strange the first time I used any sort of sex toy and then it became the norm and it certainly seemed strange the first time I used the aforementioned Pipedream products so it would, I am sure, feel similar when using one of these dolls. Eventually though it would probably seem normal and yet I don't think it is really normal to want to use one especially as they are so very lifelike, so why do I keep looking at the websites that sell them and telling myself that I would really like to try one? How many of you have had similar thoughts?