My epilepsy affects my sex life but I'm not sure what to do. Have you any advice?
For you to feel confident, it’s vital that you’re fully informed about your health. Make a list of all the questions you have in your mind, and ask your GP.
I'm having difficulty in my relationship at the moment. It's a very complicated situation so I hope you don't mind the long explanation.
I have epilepsy, and have done since I was 13, I am now almost 30. When I was 24 a previous boyfriend had sex with me after a seizure when I was unconscious and I felt very scared that someone I loved and trusted would do this whilst I was in this state. However, he said he did not realise I was in this state.
Approximately a year after this I had a fling with another man and whilst he was giving me oral sex I had a full blown seizure. I had no idea seizures could happen during sex and this was very upsetting and humiliating for me. I then decreased my sexual activity after this.
When I met my current boyfriend I was told that what they thought was epilepsy is not actually epilepsy at the start of our relationship. I felt huge relief. I told my current boyfriend about what had happened previously on both occasions and I don't know if it was a male pride thing or what but I rejected the idea of receiving oral sex and he was upset by this - he felt that I had received it from someone else and it must have been that good that they made me have a fit.
I don't actually remember it being anything but panicking me because I felt the usual 'aura' of the fit during.
My current boyfriend became so upset that 'he wasn't getting the opportunity to prove he is good enough to do that' that I allowed him to start, but faked fainting through it so this could be stopped as soon as possible.
A few months later I had a full blown fit in my workplace and have since found out that I am having approximately 3-6 small fits a day, which last about 30 seconds.
Our sex life has no passion in it and although I enjoy sex I want it over and done with before it even starts. I know the problem is my problem but my boyfriend is now under pressure to finish quickly, which he finds hard when I don't have any passion and I want it to stop or not do it at all.
I really need help to get over my fears and revamp the passion back into my sex life, can you help?
You’re right; it is a complicated situation, but I think the problem is about more than sex.
I assume you have regular hospital appointments, but have they clearly explained what they now think is the cause of your fits - and discussed your options for management/medication?
For you to feel confident, it’s vital that you’re fully informed about your health. Make a list of all the questions you have in your mind, and ask them. Take a trusted friend with you for back-up if you want to. It can be useful - even just for remembering all the information you're given. Talk to your GP as well as the specialist. If you’re not satisfied with the answers you get, change doctors - you're quite within your rights. It's really important you see someone you feel you can trust.
What you went through around 24 was serious - and frightening. I’m not surprised it’s affected your sex life - then and now. It’s possible that you’ve come to associate sex with loss of control, which makes you worry about having a fit - and that fear is bound to interfere with your enjoyment.
I could be wrong, but it sounds to me like you may never had the opportunity to discuss those experiences properly. In order to get over your fears and move forward, I think you may need a few counselling sessions. If you explain to your GP what you've been through, and how it's affecting your life, they should be able to refer you to someone. You could also contact the National Society for Epilepsy Helpline on 01494 601 400.
Meanwhile, take the pressure off yourself about sex, and try and explain your feelings to your boyfriend. I know he feels under pressure too, but he’s got to consider the traumas you’ve been through. Remember, if you don't want to be 'on the receiving end' at the moment, you can always explore other ways to satisfy him.
Thank you for explaining your story so openly and honestly. If you can get plenty of support, at home as well as professionally, I'm sure you'll soon be able to move into a new, happier phase. Really good luck.
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