If I am honest, which this seems to be about - not overly happy to be honest. Not bothered enough to do anything about it though! I could lose 14-20 lbs easily and gain the same in muscle and it would help a lot, but it never really offends me that much, I just have rock-bottom confidence at the moment anyway. Maybe once I get my esteem up a bit the dynamics of the physical side of things will resolve better and I'll either be bothered or not.
I much prefer to be functionally strong and physically able than polished and chiselled. It seems a bit vain to me to seek the appearance of a strong body. If chiselled and beautifully formed follows from gaining more functional strength and fitness then that's just dandy, but I would never have a goal of looking so-and-so.
I'm not a shallow person I like to think, there's much much more to people than how they look, so it holds less importance to me. Then again, as a fat ugly ape-man maybe relying less on physical judgement comes naturally?