• between feeling guilty and desire...

    marie84 [sign in to see picture]
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    quite long time i have read this site.

    i didnt sign up, just have read people's thoughts and stories.

    it was amazing that people live with free and desires.

    but, today i would like to note some of mine.

    maybe i like to get understanding from others.

    cuz people is similar with me and open minded on this site.

    by the way,

    i guess my english is pretty much terrible and broken.

    i will make many misunderstanding and mistakes.

    i hope u all understand it please.

    im early 30s married woman from an asian country.

    there was (and is) nothing much special life, just normal and same as others.

    except only one thing.

    at once, i cheated my husband almost one years ago.

    after that day, i have felt i was changed something on mind.

    actually, we have nothing problem.

    there are only small things, petty quarrels as like others.

    ok. i think this is too long intorduction.

    get to the point...

    i have a friend who live in Thailand.

    she is my old friend from middle school.

    we were very closed but after she married, she moved to Thailand

    cuz her husband got business in there.

    after she moved, evey one year or two, our family has visited her for vacation.

    and used to stay 1 or 2 week. rest... beach.. bbq party...

    but last year, my husband was busy, so i visited her alone.

    and.. it was big fault.

    sometimes i used to go out alone on bangkok street for shopping,

    cuz my friend have to work at day time.

    one day, i met some foeigne backpack travelers from there.

    they initiated a conversation with me, cuz they thought me as local and needed

    some infomationsof Khaosan raod of Bangkok.

    they knew soon i was not local, we talked with hands feet.. body language cuz

    my english was really bad and i didnt know in detail of streets of Bangkok.

    for fast progression..

    we became friends.

    they was new experience to me.. i never met or make real foeigne friends before.

    it was kind of excitement to me.

    we changed messenger, sometimes we sent text each other.

    after that day, we met sevral times again.

    maybe i shouldnt do that.

    but it is useless thoughts. anyway i did mistakes and i cant set back.

    one day, they invited me at their room party.

    .. alcohol... crowded music...ambience...

    yes.. i slept with them.

    i didnt know what i thought exactly...

    sometimes when i thought that day, it was unrealistic ...

    in all my life, i didnt have lived such.

    but that days.. i think i was crazy.

    to my shame... it was great night i ever had...and cant erase still..

    after that days... even after i came back to Korea

    i have wandered between desire and regret.

    i found here for my desires...

    and finaly i can tell this depend on anonymity.

    i feel lighter now.

    thank u for read such poor story.

    pusseypleaser [sign in to see picture]
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    What advice to you need for us?

    Sum Sub [sign in to see picture]
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    It's great that you feel able to share your story with us on the forums. Hopefully now you've got your story in the open you can live with less fear.

    Lovinthetoys [sign in to see picture]
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    Thank you for sharing, I hope you all the best in the future. Sounds like quite an adventure.

    Sex Squid [sign in to see picture]
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    Thank you for sharing (and welcome btw). There's nothing quite like shedding the burden of guilt by telling someone - anyone, rather than bottle it yourself. X

    Hanky Spanky! [sign in to see picture]
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    Thanks for sharing. It's good to share, helps get things off your mind at times.

    Vanessa8 [sign in to see picture]
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    I hope that sharing this is helping you process this. Maybe try to channel this sexual tension within your day to day life and your relationship? I am not sure if the culture in your country makes things more reserved sexually but maybe you can role play or fidn ways to explore at home? Best wishes in everything and welcome.

    Sxleksaker [sign in to see picture]
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    Welcome to the forum and I hope you feel better by sharing. Best wishes!

    Scorpius12 [sign in to see picture]
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    Welcome to the forum. I hope that sharing has helped you to feel better :) x

    wildflower [sign in to see picture]
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    Hi and welcome:)

    Blueeyes82 [sign in to see picture]
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    I think by sharing, she is unloading her guilt in some way, that she has been carrying around?

    It's good to air, get it off your chest

    marie84 [sign in to see picture]
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    thank u very much for all comments.

    especially blueeyes82..

    it's better to say than to keep only on mind.

    Terri JJ [sign in to see picture]
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    This is a very good place to share things which would otherwise be very difficult. No one on here will judge you and everyone makes mistakes...you are not alone.

    I hope that sharing can help you come to terms with this and make you feel a bit better about yourself xx

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