• What is this urge?

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    Tr1cky D1cky [sign in to see picture]
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    I'm a str8 married man but for some reason recently have had lots of fantasies about gay sex to the point when I do dream about sexual encounters its mainly gay dominated?

    This is a very strange thing to openly admit?

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    Btw just to say you deserve a lot of respect for talking about how you feel to "strangers" and it's far from strange because u know for a fact people develop fettishs or different interests over time whether you're in a marriage or not. And maybe others in a similar position have any advice for you?

    But seriously make sure you don't make yourself feel bad about anything, it's natural and relationships work both ways and you should be getting some support rather than feeling you have to block part of who you are out. I can't relate entirely but as mentioned I've not told my family that I'm gay, it's difficult having to mute part of yourself out and that build up of resentment against yourself and suppression is horrible and mentally challenging. I know I need to be more open but you always think there's a right time but there never is. I know it's not like you've been lying about your sexuality and really your feelings can't be defined as anything but curious so you've not been misleading her etc. These things just happen and neither yourself, your wife or family should be affected by the fact you just have an interest in guys, it's not the end of the world etc or should affect others. I'm rambling on but I'm hopeful that hearing from others might assure you dude. Chin up! :)

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    thank you, I just don't know where it has come from... it's just a sexual thing I think but don't understand why it's now... maybe just want to have a little fun (or big depending on the guy...lol) and what happens if I do it all and enjoy... where next or am I over thinking it...

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    You're welcome, sometimes there's no answers really it just happens. Don't think too far just take each day as it comes but your happiness is important and the more you resist the harder it may become, parson the pun lol

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    sorry if I sound like I'm asking odd questions but how do I approach it because there would be no way my OH would entertain the conversation. ......

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    Sorry was just making a cuppa!

    Not odd at all don't be silly dude. Would writing something down just explaining you have feelings and have the urge to explore more sexually and that you haven't gone off her you just want to try new things. Maybe explain you don't want to be with a guy and never have but having sex with one turns you on and that's as far as it goes. Could just say you don't want to hide your feelings because it's affecting you and that you would appreciate if you could communicate with her some how about it and that you were scared and nervous about how to talk to her. Explain you understand if she could never be more open because that's what she wants but you didn't want to regret never saying anything. I'm not sure seeing as I don't know her or you and I don't have any relationship history but I hope this makes sense. Hopefully advice from others in or have been in a similar position can help more though.

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    I think the more I discuss it, the more I want to know how it feels from beginning to end (so to speak) and doing it all... including oral etc... in and out top and bottom kiss and grope....

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    and are you camp acting because if you are! your family already know and are just waiting for you too...x

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    Oops
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    repeat....

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    They have an inclination because my gran asked when I was younger and I denied it etc but I'm not camp unless drunk lol. It's just complicated because my dad's religion doesn't accept gay people and I still live at home so I don't know what would happen etc. My sister was lately asking my best friend who didn't say anything about it.

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    I'm not gonna lie to you it's pretty amazing doing all those things with another guy but I might be bias, mind me asking how old you and your other half are?

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    I'm a young 38 a she's a young 32.... but we have kids I have used her toys before now on my own :-) ...

    I assume your dad is Johavah witness...

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    shame we cannot swap details to chat a little more freely - don't worry I'm not a stalker...ie whatsapp

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    I thought you were a lot older :p you've got lots of time to explore yet! Haha don't blame ya I love mine!

    Haha no worse, he's a Muslim although he drinks, gambles and doesn't go to the mosque so hardly perfect himself lol.

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    haha.... I've got muslim friends and staff...

    I just think a cock will feel better than toy but would love my oh to peg me....

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    I'm in no way comparing him to other Muslims although it's not something they generally condone.

    Lol it is much much better! Might not buzz but it's warm, pumping of blood and hits the right spot!

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    lol... I bet

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    tri1cky D1cky - are you turned most turned on by male male porn because there are aspects of the sexual interaction in the pace / roles, etc that turn you on? I am not a judger nor implying anything here, but you may want to explore some of that with your wife such as pegging, dominating, etc. If you are feeling like you are needing to explore the other gender personally you had best be open and honest with her. Some folks have open relationships and such, I personally could not do that but communication is key. Best wishes in everything.

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    Agree with above :)

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